Showing posts with label Optimism. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Optimism. Show all posts

9.21.2010

Marvelous Errors

Last night, as I was sleeping,
I dreamt – marvelous error! –
That I had a beehive
Here inside my heart.
And the golden bees
Were making white combs
And sweet honey
From my old failures.

- Antonio Machado, translated by Robert Bly
 
(Hanging Rock State Park, July 2010)

9.16.2010

Resilience

When did September happen?  Why is it that I can't remember August? For the past weeks (weeks that became months) I have hovered outside of it all, wondering if I would ever get the courage again to merge back into the busy traffic of things.  And then, just as all who loved me during this slow fearful time promised, things started to get better.  I went to see lovely Jeanette, who helped me hunt down those wounded thoughts in my mind that wouldn't let me get past the few minutes in July when I was convinced Isaac was gone from me forever.  Then, using EMDR (a technique I don't understand yet have still benefited from) she helped me build the more compassionate thoughts that lead to my favorite of all human traits - resilience.  What a gift.  I am back.  And I've started to take pictures again.  See?

Back in the saddle again:

Chasing chickens, an exercise in persistence:


Persistence paying off:

Broody Jane:
Atticus in flower pot:   


Me in a cat's eye.



2.23.2010

Participate

It is up to us
to re-enchant this planet Earth

We are the elves and giants
we are the shining ones
(Will Ashe Bacon)

1.30.2010

Let it Snow

It's a white, white world



We don't see mornings like this very often in north carolina.  It started last night as I drove home from work and all appearences indicate it did not let up while I slept.  We have drifts!  Drifts, I say! The little dog is fearless -- his legs are too short to walk in the stuff, so he leaps through it.  It adds an element of joy to his morning business.


I'm guessing we got 6 inches? 8 inches? My coop-mucking boots kept me dry but not warm.  Actually, from head to toe, I was sorely underdressed for the weather. But the chickies needed to be fed and watered! I'm wishing for some of those insulated Carhart bibbies my brother is so fond of.



1.29.2010

Circle of Lights

Thursday night when the sun went down and the full moon rose, we all gathered on the little field at the bottom of the hill to listen to the kids of Montessori Children's House of Durham light up the night with their sweet little voices. The school buildings were dressed in twinkling white christmas lights and each child held a warm flickery candle. See if you can spot Isaac adding his voice to the chorus. Here's a hint -- look for the ever-present wide-brimmed thinking cap.




"If all people lived their lives
as if they were a song
for singing out the light
There will be music for the stars
to be dancing circles in the night"






The late night didn't slow Isaac down any the next morning. Just me (sigh). Here is his in his home-made Jedi speeder.



Take cover!






1.23.2010

A good morning

I got up an hour and a half earlier than I usually do on a Saturday morning.  And what a beautiful morning it was to get up to.  The sunshine was worth it.






1.22.2010

All is well

I am the child of the universe.
She puts her almighty protection around me.
I am free from accidents, death, sickness.
I am now shining with golden light from top to toe.
I am her chosen protected child, and she is my shield.
The winds shall aid my progress.
Water shall cleanse me from fear,
Fire will purify my doubts,
And the earth shall nourish me to health.
All is well, all is well, all is well.

(Zsuzsanna E. Budapest)

1.20.2010

Morning Fur and Feathers

At last count, we were up to 14.  Pets that is.  When you take out the nine chickens, that still leaves three cats, one tiny dog, and a three-legged lizard.  Isaac suggested that I list them all here, in alphabetical order. (Isaac thinks all things are improved when placed in alphabetical order).  So, here they are: Atticus Finch, Batty, Black Beak, Cricket, GoldenHeadRedClaw, Goldilocks, Jane, Miss Mouse, Rainbow, Ralphie, Rosalind, Skye, Storm Cloud, Tinydog.  Whew!

Each critter has its own little personality, its own set of needs, and its own way of making Isaac and I smile.  For Isaac, they have allowed his empathic spirit to blossom and his patience to deepen.  I think it is a rare eight year old who successfully tames a skittish chicken over the course of several months.  Look at them now, sneaking in an early morning cuddle before we head out to school:



To me, the animals truly are a reason to wake up in the morning, especially for those three days a week when Isaac is with his Daddy.  On those days, my first smile of the morning is always for my Cricket cat.  She sleeps tucked next to my cheek on the pillow at night so that she can greet me with a gentle head bump first thing in the morning.  I love that little girl. 



It is such a simple thing reallly.  They need us, so we rise up and do what needs to be done.  We fill their bowls, let them out, and turn around to let them right back in again.  We build them safe places to roost and sew tiny felted fish for them to bat around and lose under the couch.  We rescue them from a life tied to a tree in someone's backyard and give them bad haircuts with dull scissors (just an aside -- dogs with standing up ears look terrible with mohawks).  It isn't complex, why they are so important.  But it is profound.  The make us do.  And for anyone like me who has felt the frozen-in-place all the time un-doing of depression, these sweet fur and feather babies are indispensible.




1.11.2010

Morning Ups and Downs

Definite UP -- French toast


Here's a DOWN (cold, cold morning) with a silver UP lining (pretty frost on my front door):


Waaaaaaaay Down -- middle of the night power outage slays my alarm clock:


Sweet little Cricket cat on the pillow making me smile - Up.


The UPs have it!!!

1.01.2010

Reclaiming my morning



Why I Wake Early

Hello, sun in my face.
Hello, you who made the morning
and spread it over the fields
and into the faces of the tulips
and the nodding morning glories,
and into the windows of, even, the
miserable and the crotchety –

best preacher that ever was,
dear star, that just happens
to be where you are in the universe
to keep us from ever-darkness,
to ease us with warm touching,
to hold us in the great hands of light –
good morning, good morning, good morning.

Watch, now, how I start the day
in happiness, in kindness.

~ Mary Oliver ~

(Why I Wake Early, 2004)